Sometimes i wonder , where do i stand in you people hearts . to be true , ive never and i mean NEVER celebrated my bdae for the past 14years . is it too much to ask for ? all i ask for is all my frens to be around me for the happiest day of my life , ntg much , no presents needed , no cakes needed , just accompany will do . But everytime i plan for my bdae , ntg turn out to be right . yes , im planning for my own bdae bash , no one but me . this really opens up my eyes . When people need me so much , ill be right there but do they do the same ? Even my bestest friend didnt wish me . am i born to be some kind of a jinx ? i felt so weak . so much misery . its like ive never woken up from a nightmare . Nightmares after nightmares . its like falling on a continiuos staircase that never ends . tears after tears . im sick and tired of crying . i may look like one bitch that doesnt know the meaning of misery or doesnt look like i have any slightest problem . But you could never judge the book by its cover . yet , i wanna thank you people for wishing me . thank you (':