Promblems has been pilling up . Honestly , its a stressful year for me this year .
Without papa by my side , is making me more stress . Its all about MONEY , MONEY & MONEY .
I dont know how to elaborate this matter , but i'll try . Pfft~
Starhub bill is pilling up ffrom 200+ bucks to 400+ bucks . And if i were to terminate my bill contract , they
were to charge me another 500bucks . So thats makes it to almost 1k . How am i suppose to pay that amount with my condition like this ? Its impossible for me to find a work with my condition . bahh~
PLUS ! My baby's needs ? Plans ? Sha still goes to school , so ill have to save up all my school pocket money . I repeat oke , ALL MY SCHOOL MONEY . Which means , aku kene la bawak bekal dari uma just to save up money .
oke nie nk uat counting siket ehk . . For This two months . . For all the schooling days .
1 month ade 4 weeks .
1 week ade 7 days . So every week subtract 2 days , reason = sat&sun NO SCHOOL .
so 1 week = 5 day . 4 weeks = 20 days . My daily pocket money is only 5bucks .
20days multiply 5bucks = every month i saved 100buck . So that makes 2 month = 200bucks .
With this amount , i can only settle 1/5 of my bill tau ! Tapi atleast i can find a job after i finishes school , BUT the main problem is WHOSE GONNA TAKE CARE OF MY BABY ? Bahh ~
Leceh la siol . Oke . another solution , i can pay the 400+bucks and continue with the contract tapi every month nk kene bayar 90bucks . Kiwak stress siol . Jadi starting from now , every cent that i get , i have to save . I dont wanna burden my mom and dad animore . Espeacially my dad . Mom and dad has been pampering me since i were a baby , the reason is because im the youngest among my siblings . Daddy has been pampering me by buying me this and that . Even if has no money to , he would try to buy for me . Its enough burden . Being pampered here and there yet i did all kinda problem till they just have to break to tears . Despite all the promblems and mistakes that i did repeatedly , they still accept the fact that im their daughter and forgives every single mistakes . And continues to pampered me hoping i would change for the better . But . Haish . Regrets is the thing i can do . God ! How i wish i could turn back times and mend my way . And be the filialest daughter i can to my parents . Oh god . how can that be possible ? How can it be possible ? Alhamdullilah im mending my ways now . . And i hopes god give me the strengh to continue my life patiently . And i hope papa mend his ways too . As for my solemnisation . Its being postpone . Due to papa's condition now . As well as the marriage . Which means , we can only have our solemnisation and marriage next year after papa is released . And i hope to build up a happy family and open up a new chapter in our new book (:
Haiyo type peh type , tk prasan siot panjang giler aku nye post narie .
Phew ~
atlast abes jgk aku nk released wats in my mind .
Kla till here . toodles (;